I have been experiencing a roller coaster of emotions about turning 40. First of all I can't believe that I am this old! I remember being a kid and thinking that I would be 32 when the century turned to 2000, and how old that seemed. Now I am at the age of "mid life crisis", and while I don't have a red corvette, I am definitely in a position that I never would have imagined myself in- living in a foreign country, far from all that is comfortable and secure.
I feel older, and can tell that my body is getting older. My eyesight has changed, my knees are not what they were, I have some wrinkles.... but yet I don't feel old. I strongly believe that you are only as old as you live your life. If you live a sedentary, boring life, you will be old when you turn 40. But if you live an active, interesting life, you will stay young. While time will continue to tick on, and the numbers will get bigger when I say how old I am, I am determined to do my best to live a youthful life. I want to be that 80 year old who still goes to the gym (my Grandpa went to the gym 3x per week until he was in his late 80's!!!), and so I am laying the groundwork for that now.
So while I may partake in an alcoholic drink to celebrate my birthday (but probably not a 40 oz. bottle of beer), I also am trying not to think of this as the start of going "over the hill". I still have a big mountain ahead of me to climb and I look forward to the view all the way up!